This week has been, to say the least, filled with different occurrences and emotions. After a draining week of packing and figuring out where I will live and where all my belongings will live, I am relieved to tell you my awesome friends once again prevail! I am staying with my good friend Leah, and my parents are at my step-dads parents house.I feel relieved, safe, and a little calmer, but at the same time I feel as if my life is at a pause, a little lost, and always still concerned a little to much for my own good.
The week has been filled with many mental break downs, and yet joy. My friends kept "kidnapping" me (with permission) to get out of the house and get my mind off everything. although I protested saying I had to much to do, they didn't listen, and I'm glad they didn't. They know what's best for me. I went to see Scary Poppins again on Friday with a few of those friends and had a lovely night, but when I came home and saw my nearly empty room, with it's bare white walls and empty shelves and closet, I began to cry again...
We had a yard sale Saturday to get rid of some furniture and miscellaneous stuff that we simply couldn't take with us... I went with my step dad and a good friend to set up at 5am... ugh... my mom gave me permission to leave once she got there around 1, and I intended to head home and pack up the kitchen, but was once again kidnapped to simply sit on a couch and watch movies. In my head all I could think of was what I needed to do, but once again, my friends (and mom) knew better and I got to keep my sanity.
when Leah picked me up for church sunday, I had bags of clothes in hand, and I was officially moving in. I'm not going to lie, it's been hard not to cry and to keep the mentality of "it will all be ok". I had a hard time holding myself together later that night when I was taking my packed clothes and giving them homes on the shelves and hangers provided. I got to rehearsal sunday and went from sluggish and mind boggled, to surrounded by brilliant people and focused on a better cause than my own problems. I am so thankful that I have masquer in my life. I joined to do ministry, but I feel like it's ministered more to me than I have to anyone else.
after rehearsal we went to build a bear at downtown disney. It's a wonderful little tradition to take new members that are wanted to stick around to get a masquer bear. I got mine a month or two ago, and we went for two people to make theirs. Ian came up to me as we were leaving and simply shared a small piece of his testimony with me and told me "everything will be ok" and gave me the best hug ever. He walked away and I shed a few tears that I didn't want anyone to see, and later thanked him. He had no idea how much I needed that simple encouragement and masquer brings me so much of that.
I went yesterday to help my mom pack up the last of her stuff and she dropped me back off at Leah's and met her mom. It was like the official handing off of the child... ugh.. today my parents are officially handing in the keys.
Through all this, I know God's still here, and I can already see him working through it all. between putting these amazing people in my life at the right moment, giving me and my parents places to go, and opening doors to small jobs here and there for me, and giving me peace and comfort. Praise God.
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